cleaning

So i am off work until the 10th, and i find if i keep my mind busy i don't get as sad i would. So i find my self cleaning anything and everything. Then the dog and husband make a mess and i go behind and clean again. I miss my Laken so much. I know i am starting to accept the fact that my little girl is gone my "what if's" and "why..." questions are become less frequent. I may cry but I'm not crying for her i am crying for me. Who is left here without her. She is now just a memory but that memory is my treasure that i'll cherish forever.